I come from a hick town. My dad cooked speed so I knew what speed was early on- I knew it was dangerous. When I was 10 years old my dad’s best friend asked me “Do you want to party?” Not really willing I said I would try it. He shot me up with speed and he dope raped me. I told- but nobody believed me.  And it continued. I was dope raped and molested from the time I was 10 ‘til the time I was 13. So I ran away.

 

I knew I could make money with my body. I hit San Francisco and asked around about where the male hustler zone was. Before I even got to Polk Street I had picked up a date. I was fresh, a pretty little boy with long hair and no scars.

 

When I first came out here I wasn’t gonna get fucked- I wasn’t gonna do this or do that- until this one date gave me a shot of dope. I guess that was the first time I decided for myself that I wanted to do speed. He said “I’ll give you such and such amount of money to fuck you without a condom.” I found it was a lot easier to do dates under sparkle and to make more money because I was getting fucked. AIDS had just started and like most 13 year olds, I thought I was invincible.  Ha.

 

My dates would buy drugs just to get me high. I dated big connections who paid me with cash and 8 balls. Then I figured out I could sell speed to my tricks. They’d front me the money, I would take a little walk like I was going to get it- and then come back.

 

As a result… one mistake leads to another… one decision leads to another... I became one of the biggest prostitutes out there- doing lots and lots of dope. The more dates I was turning, the more drugs I was doing. I was so high I didn’t know where I was or what I was doing. I would stay up on a run 30 days at a time, like that was the thing to do. I was talking to telephone poles. I would go until my body shut down and then I’d get up and do more.

 

I got myself in some bad situations using drugs and dating. I learned what I know now through lot’s of fucking up. I screwed up a lot- I got really really spun- I would let my date do too much dope- and they would put me in real bad situations. Dates would shoot me up with grams- over and over for days. I would get lost and not really know what they were doing to me- then next thing I know I am in a dungeon with six guys. Yes, I was getting paid… but how far are you willing to go? Where is your limit? I made many mistakes and have been in situations that turned ugly- I couldn’t do anything about it because I was too high.

 

From experience you learn. See, nowadays I will go there only if I feel safe and the environment is safe. At first I am going to shoot a quarter gram, start having sex, see how it works. If it works alright, then I am gonna go on that trip- I’ll do my big gram shot and let the man do what he wants. Because at that point I know he knows what he’s doing- I know I am safe and I don’t need to supervise, be a babysitter or keep my guard up. I’ll party and have fun with regulars- if I know how he acts and I know he is not going to hurt me. Other than scenarios like that, I won’t do more than a quarter - just enough to give me a boost so I can get the man off and get out of there.

 

You gotta learn how to read them... I can’t explain how to do that. You just gotta trust your instincts on some things. If you are talking with someone in a car, you just gotta shut off your humanity and trust your instincts. Be nice and civilized-but trust your instincts. If something tells you this dude might not be cool- back out of it as fast as you can.  If you are new at this and someone comes and says “I’d like to take you home, tie you up and fuck the hell out of you for an hour and a half.” Don’t do it unless you know what you are doing. That same dude who is all nice and caring could cut your fucking throat and walk away. If you are tied up or too fucked up you can’t do anything about it. 

 

You need to look at things, be able to read people. You gotta look deep, look in their eyes, and open up your senses.  When you first start out hustling you have that nervous feeling in your stomach- you got this dude offering you money and you either do it or you don’t and you face the consequences positive or negative. Positive consequences- you’ll have money- you’ll be able to get high-you’ll have a place to stay. Negative consequences- dude could kill you- you could get sick- you could test positive for HIV.

You gotta accept those consequences and you gotta make choices for yourself. Realize that for every decision you make there will be a negative or a positive consequence. It’s up to you. It’s what you are willing to do. There is no way to guarantee you are not going to get HIV.

 

When I started out dating everybody stuck together. Back then all the kids out there were family. When you were hopping in a car the kid that was closest to you would write down the date’s license plate number or remember what that car looked like in case you came up missing. If one of us pulled a trick we all benefited- we all got money, we all got high, we got a hotel room. Everybody looked out for everybody.

 

It’s not like that now with the kids on the street, they got that hustler mentality. “Get what you can get right now, and fuck you.” With the hustler mentality you ain't going to get very far. The secret is- do it right. If I do what I am supposed to do with a date- do what he paid me to do; he is going to come back and when he comes back its $200 dollars every time he sees me- I got a regular and that’s guaranteed  money.

 

I never rip dates off.  If you can’t make him trust you, you aren’t going to make anything.  I learned a long time ago that most dates will give you what you ask for. When you got a date that really likes you, they are not going to say no to you.  You know why? Because they want that ass. And they want your time. 

 

Guys who are robbing their dates don’t care about anybody else out there; they don’t have anybody watching their back. If they disappear- they disappear, nobody cares about them. As a result the dates aren’t paying like they used to and they are not coming around that much anymore- most of them are hooking up on the internet now.  Guys with the hustler mentality-they don’t see the big picture, they don’t realize that if you rip this man off you won’t date this man again and he is gonna tell his friends and he is going to tell bartender friends and news about you will spread “He’s a rip off. This dude is no good.”  You ain’t gonna never pick up a trick. You are fucked and it fucks it up for everybody else too. Street work can still be done- but now you are only making 20 bucks a date. If you escort off the computer or phone lines you make $100 an hour or more.

 

I specialize in fantasy role play. I can make more money as a specialist than I ever could as just a hustler getting fucked. I have always found that the heavy duty crap- S/M, fisting, and bondage- it’s not sexual- it’s spiritual. It can be dangerous. You have to know what your limits are and you have to set them forth right off the top. If you want to go past those limits you better be with someone who knows what they are doing. If you don’t know how to get out of bondage, don’t let somebody tie you down. Don’t say you know what you are doing if you don’t- because you will get yourself in a wreck.

 

I have learned from experience that you go hourly, so even if they get off in 15 minutes you are still getting that hourly rate and you won’t be rushed for time. If you enjoy the person who hired you- just remember one thing- he is still a date. Make sure you accept that- get money for what you do- regardless of what you feel- business is business. If you are HIV+ any time you get up or go to bed, take your medication. Make sure you eat- drinking water and taking vitamin C will bring your veins back up.

 

If you get too high there are two things I recommend. Smoke a joint and drink a couple glasses of milk- that will get you nice and mellow and will bring you down pretty quick. Just smoke a joint instead of doing heroin or some other drug to take the edge off. Marijuana doesn’t bring you down like a rock- it’ll put you back on a regular plane so you can go to sleep.  If you don’t smoke weed take a couple marinols and eat something small, it’ll make you feel better! Don’t go more than two or three days. Usually after 3 days most people get fucked up in the head and start losing things.

 

You get paid a lot more money if you don’t use condoms nowadays. When I do use a condom- I use female condoms- they don’t even realize it’s in there. Use enough lubrication and it works.  When I first found out I was HIV positive I didn’t really say much about it to dates. They didn’t ask.  But nowadays if I am barebacking I say “Look, before we go any further I want you to know I am HIV+” As long and they know I am HIV+ I feel confident with it. “I am HIV+” is the first thing I say. 90% of the time they don’t reject you, they want to be with you even if they are HIV negative. As long as I tell them, that’s fair.  They know and I am not hiding it.

 

Just use common sense. I won’t recommend barebacking. If they say “Can I fuck you without a condom-I’ll give you double your money if you let me do it.” Know this, if the date doesn’t give a fuck about condoms he doesn’t give a fuck about his own HIV status. If you aren’t using condoms don’t ever let them come inside you. Learn to know when they are getting ready to come so you can pull them out and jack them off with your hand.  If you are HIV+ you are less likely to give somebody HIV as a bottom versus topping. If you are HIV+ and topping you are dumping it right in their system. But you gotta figure- if they are shooting drugs, having unsafe sex and picking up hustlers-put two and two together- the guy is probably HIV+ and might not even know it.  If you are out there doing crazy stupid shit you are going to catch HIV eventually. If you are out there shooting dope, fucking lots of guys, having sex with a bunch of hustlers that’s a proven fact.

 

As far as the other STDs, I have never caught any of them. For some reason I have been lucky. I take a good look at a date’s cock and ass and I do it by feel.  A sore or blister has a rough edge-you can tell by feeling for it. If I am going into that butt- I will play with it and check it out beforehand.  If you are a sex worker, the St. James Infirmary is the place to go. They specialize in working with the sex workers. St James infirmary has ex hustlers working there, people who have actually been there and done this.  That means they aren’t going to be judgmental, they know what you are facing, they are gonna take care of you.  Yeah, going to the clinic is gonna take some time out of your day, but I would rather spend a couple hours at the doctor getting checked out and treated if I have something. It doesn’t take that long. City Clinic, Tom Wadell, and ward 4J at SF General are other places you can go get checked.  Haight Ashbury clinic is good to.   I go get checked every three months.

 

Take care of yourself.

 

Sex Worker Resources

1) St. James Infirmary                      www.stjamesinfirmary.org

1372 Mission Street San Francisco, CA 94103                Phone: 415.554.8494

The mission of The St. James Infirmary is to provide compassionate and non-judgmental health care and social services for all sex workers while preventing occupational illnesses and injuries through a comprehensive continuum of services.

Tuesdays 12PM-3PM*  STI Testing, Rapid HIV testing (with same day results)

Tuesdays 4PM to 6PM  Primary Medical Care

Thursdays 6PM-8PM Transgender Health Care

 

2) The SAGE Project                        www.sagesf.org

1385 Mission Street, Suite 300 San Francisco, CA 94103

Phone: (415) 905-5050

The mission of the SAGE Project is to improve the lives of individuals victimized by, or at risk for sexual exploitation, violence and prostitution through trauma recovery services, substance abuse treatment, vocational training, housing assistance and legal advocacy.

 

3) SF City Clinic

 356 7th Street San Francisco, CA 94103
415-487-5500
DROP-IN HOURS

8:00-4:00 M-W-F

1:00-6:00 Tuesday*
1:00-4:00 Thursday*